Daily Portion

 

  Daily Portion 

Do you let fear drive your decisions? I sometimes do and suddenly realize what the Lord has been showing me and teaching me is opposite of the choices I make.  And just as He lovingly guides me back to His truth it is in that realization I can once again move forward.

“He humbled you by letting you go hungry; then gave you manna to eat, which you and your fathers had not known, so that you might learn that man does not live on bread alone but by every word that comes from the mouth of the Lord.” Deuteronomy 8:3

It it is in the humbling I can begin to recognize the pride. 

Journaling has become this conversation I have between the Lord and I. Not even what I share through writing will be shared through this special time with the Lord. It is my back and forth conversation of telling Him and writing down all my feelings, concerns, and issues and keeping track of how He works through it. It is the remembrance of how He has continued to provide. So when fear comes to visit me that dated journal is there with records of how God has worked along with His Word to back that up. When I journal it will sometimes be a verse I am reading that will be illuminated to write that down and begin to ask, “God what could you be showing me through this verse?” Back when God was supplying for the Israelites food that would sustain them it was a daily portion. Exactly what they needed for that day and that is what He does for us through His Written Word. The Living Word can change our ways and help us to recognize within our mind and heart what we are allowing to determine our steps. 

 God will allow us to make choices. That is what I did and I thought that my choice was sufficient. It made sense logically anyone would understand it. But this morning He once again made me realize that “choice” wasn’t the best He had for me. Sure it would be easier but that isn’t what He really wants. He wants the best for me. The enemy of my mind my thoughts, feelings want to grab onto my will but the Lord is showing me choosing Him is so much sweeter. It isn’t just some obedience He wants He wants full hearted obedience. He doesn’t want it easier for me. He wants dependency. As someone recently reminded me, getting comfortable with being uncomfortable will be on ongoing process and a daily reminder of living less for myself and more for Him. 

That is the most beautiful thing about writing it down. So we can go back and remember that the Bible teaches us to remember. He leads us on our journeys. He humbles us and tests us so that He can know what is in our hearts because He loves us that much. We matter more to Him than we will ever be able to comprehend and because of that we get to take heart and know He is God and we are not. Like taking my hands off and letting Him go.. 

Jesus,

You counsel us when we ask. Your Word speaks into those places the enemy wants us hiding away. Forgive me when I forget I am not in charge. When we walk in your ways the intentions of our heart can reflect a full hearted obedience. Lead us and guide us, Good Shepherd. 

Amen