Drain My Pride

 

  Drain My Pride

“Now God has revealed these things to us by the Spirit, since the Spirit searches everything, even the depths of God. For who can know a person’s thoughts except the spirit within him? In the same way, no one knows the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God.” 1 Corinthians 2:10-11

I am my worst enemy. The closer I grow in my relationship to Jesus the more I recognize this in myself. I want to take my understanding and put that above the wisdom of God. I envy my mind and I boast in myself and that just never works out. This can come in many ways for me. Lately it has been taking in things around me such as Social Media and allowing that to take root in my mind. That is one that will always point me toward my circumstances and keep me being boastful in myself. It causes envy of what I see and looking at other things to fulfill me. And before I know it I have a restless anxious mindset once again. Right where the enemy of my mind wants me. Back to my old ways. Jesus came to bring us new ways.

What do we do with those things that can’t be changed within us like pride and boasting? 

I have to recognize them first. Sometimes this is quicker but sometimes it is that slow acknowledgement within my mind. That pride will make me think I need to do it and I forget that my Shepherd leads me. Boasting is another area that I will start to trust myself in. That word boast was something I used to dismiss because it always painted a puffed up person but the reality that too can slip in unnoticed until I realize once again I have put myself back on that throne of thinking I am in charge. And as I just heard this morning sin can’t be trained. I can’t train that boasting or pride to work in my favor. I will always fall short of my understanding and what I am lacking until I change and move forward. At the root level of these sins they will begin to plant something within my mind that will throw me off course faster than I ever intended to go. Repenting of my ways is life long learning to turn to Jesus. Knowing we could never fix our sin problem on our own, it is that continual offering of rinse and repeat all the days of our lives. 

My thoughts will always reveal my motives. The surrender acknowledges my weakness and where I need to repent. 

Father,

Here I am again thinking I can do this on my own. Wisdom will only come from you. Right thinking will always come from you. I acknowledge those areas of pride and boasting in my heart. I ask that you forgive me of those thoughts and move back towards your intentions. Empty me of my intentions, pride, boastfulness, and fill me with your motives. For I am conscious of my rebellion and my sin is always before me. Keep changing me to make me more like you King Jesus.

Amen